Hideous Monster

This time I see it
on your lifeless face
You're pained with bitter resentment
towards this, a mannequin race

Everyday you feel it
rejection of yourself
You hide in the illusion
from the fate that you've been dealt

The diamonds, how they sparkle
to replace your lightless eyes
You bury your face in satin sheets
to muffle expensive cries

Believe love is equal only
to the envy that they feel
And measure all your happiness
by the glances that they steal

Aspirations of perfection
haunt your every thought
The scales of pretty failure
hold the memories that you've bought

The judgements will consume you
swallowed by plastic lies
Your soul a hideous monster
through shallowness it dies

Devout Lunatic

I have no compassion
for the possessive
I have no understanding
of the obsessive

call this unbearable
so you don't have to know
what it's like to feel
to love and to grow

I question most things
to distract the cliche
you can't learn anything
if you already know the way

my clouds hold knowledge
the rain, the truth
wash away ignorance
you wash away youth

I know myself
because I know my friends
I read every letter
that the mockingbird sends

seldom do we find
a river so dry
as the hearts of the people
that make loved ones cry

I swear up and down
for the adrenaline rush
I sit and wait patiently
for the imminent crush

your words are of fire
but your mind is cold
you live for nothing
just to do what your told

I'm a devout lunatic
'cause I can't stand the sane
I build these walls
'cause I can't stand the pain

my madness is pleasure
there are no rules
to follow an invisible line
is the hobby of fools

tragic to speak
and only spread hate
a believer of reason
not one of fate

we create life
and destroy ourselves
put you prejudice
back on the shelves

I listen to silence
your words are too loud
I'd tell you my secret
but I'm afraid you're too proud

Cycles

were we so mistaken
at the beginning of it all
though the bricks were in our hands
we couldn't see the wall

and once that cycle started
we fell into our pace
what started out so slowly
sprinted to a race

time was chased away
the past all that remained
only now as I look back
do I see the surface stained

our hands so wrought in anger
could never feel embrace
apology struck into your eyes
but I didn't deserve the grace

shame became like daytime
it was all that we could see
and as stillness was momentum
there was no place we'd rather be

I refused to face the inevidible
so plain before our eyes
what once held us together
soon severed all our ties

assign the blame to me
a diversion to your guilt
the stone pillars crumbled beneath
of the foundation that we built

we tumbled into silence
and were deafened by the sound
screaming into nothing
as the cycle came around

entrapment laced with consent
we chose to be this way
do we linger in this moment
when it hurts us both to stay

the end marks a new beginning
of a time no longer shared
wandering in our separate directions
to places we never dared

Tricks

You know I feel the shards
underneath your skin
I know what you want
but where do I begin

that bitter taste
is suddenly sweet
frozen solid
but I can't stand the heat

reason seems logical
until logic is reasoned with
it turns out you find out
that reason was just a myth

it all just figures
until you figure it all out
so you give in to give up
and learn that its best to doubt

but it really means nothing
you just have to accept
that there are always exceptions
you have to except


Its all so confusing
so forget about that
let's see what other tricks
I can pull from this hat

Crash and Burn

I feel like its always
the beginning of the end
I hold on for the life of me
cause you were my only friend

but why in the here and now
does it have to just stop
Time keeps movin so fast
but we're no longer on top

its like it all keeps crumbling
like this crash and burn
I did all my homework
but there was no lesson to learn

and this is all we made of it
we swirled it around
can't seem to try it
but we still drank it down

and why do we fight
for this reckoning
when everything we say
points us to another thing

I'll never understand
why it has to be so hard
if I must pay the price
well, then here is my card

Charge it to the competitor
I'm not ready to move on
you think you're the king
but baby you're just a pawn

listen while I speak these words
and you best keep them near
because they may be the last
that you'll ever hear

Silent Scream

Bite your tongue
Taste the blood
Speak no words
waste the mud

Deception
Hide your face
Under leather
Wrapped in lace

Bells that ring
Phones that chime
Hear the music
Keep the time

Erase me
So I’ll leave
Love me
And I’ll believe

Lights too bright
Can’t see the stars
Skin’s too thick
To hold the scars

History fades
But leaves a mark
Shadows glow
Inside the dark

Whisper soft
So all can hear
Why only face
The things you fear

Listen close
The silent scream
I’d rather be
Than only seem

Wax Figurines

Falling too conscious
I hate the feeling
Just let me go
I don’t need the healing

I’m thinking logically
Don’t call me insane
You’re not the judge of me
You’re all just the same

just wax figurines
From the same mold
Why be ordinary
If you can be bold

I need no excuses
This is who I am
Say what you want
‘cause I don’t give a damn

liars are role models
and truth is imprisoned
you say you want order
is this what you envisioned

good people lose
and bad people rule
you can look in my eyes
but you can’t pull the wool

I see it too clearly
Though I don’t want to
I know the tired words
The ones that resent you

Paint me a picture
So I can’t see what's real
But I know myself
And that you can’t steal

The Well Worn Path

It’s sad how you walk
This path so worn
Been following the leader
Since the day you were born

You may have dreams
To set the par
As far as I can tell
You haven’t so far

You drown in this river
As you get pulled along
Why stay here
In a place you’ll never belong

Fight the current
And learn to fly
When you know the truth
There’s no need to ask why

In this world
Of a robotic norm
It seems like a drought
When it’s really a storm

Run in a circle
Or step in line
Why take yours
If I’ve already got mine

Don’t give in
To this all of a kind
Thanks for the thought
But I’ve got my own mind

Do as they say
Or give up your soul
The bricks in the wall
Fall to form a hole

Journey

Take this from me
All that I've made
Fall down and sink
In the lies where you wade

Not made of steel
Or carved out of stone
I feel the hurt too
And swear you're not alone

Remembering is hard
When you try so hard to forget
It feels like I know you
But we've never met

Do we surrender
Or stay in this fight
Stand for justice
To be told you have no right

Bitterness burns
Like the light from the sun
Be patient like the moon
Wait til the day is done

How do we find something
That was never really there
It's hard to show emotion
If you don't even care

When assigned a label
We become what we're not
You try to forgive
But you haven't forgot

Lost in thought
And swayed in song
At the rate you're going
It won't take long

Where we've been
Defines who we are
The place we're headed
Is never too far

Remembering You

Will you walk away
If given a choice
Becoming a whisper
A lost and lonely voice

You struggle to breathe
As you’re choked by tears
You’ll try to leave
To overcome your fears

Words can sting
Worse than any physical hurt
Fight to get up
Or lie in the dirt

Remember these feelings
We learn from the past
Savor all happiness
Because good things never last

Strength starts here
In the weakest of days
The way it is now
Is never how it stays

I don’t see the monster
You claim to be
Look through these eyes
And see what I see

Mirror in the mind
Holds the reflection of the heart
I wish we could leave here
And go back to the start

When it’s all said and done
And the color starts to fade
I won’t be bitter
Or regret the decisions I’ve made

Fork In The Road

This is about us
And the tension in between
We think venomous thoughts
And say what we don’t mean

Can we continue this way
When what we had seems so lost
I’ve tried to hold on
But at what cost

The burning on the inside
From a light that was so bright
Has faded to a whisper
Now as dark as night

It hurts ‘cause I still love you
But I know I must let go
Even the heat of summer
Must give way to all the snow

I know that I will miss you
With no levee for my tears
Soon the cold will start to melt
As the spring of healing nears

You ask me not to throw away
The beautiful things we’ve shared
Damage comes from devastation
For which we’re unprepared

As I’m here in this moment
Time’s like an unmoving ocean
I feel alone and stuck in place
My heart so cold and frozen

Goodbye is all that’s left of this
Our wide-eyed wonderment gone
We walk in separate directions now
As the clock of life moves on

In The Wake Of It All

hourglass sand
spills on the floor
you pick up the pieces
it's time you want more



rendor you speechless
cat got your tongue
speak up now
or wait til you're young



nothing makes sense
unless you pretend
rewrite these pages
for rules they bend


over and under
into the unknown
choose which king
you wish to dethrown


taste of the good life
becomes bittersweet
prepare to look down
the worlds at your feet


the sun does rise
if the moon shall sleep
ask flowers why they bloom
and clouds why they weep


I'd ask you to stay
if I thought you would
I don't regret this
even though I should


could love be this simple
like an eternal dance
why not live forever
if given the chance


the wind tells my secrets
but I know its lies
one day a tornado
the next a disguise

our glass is half full
so hold your breath
love is forever
or at least til death


whatever the reasons
we still have hope
dynamite explodes
at the end of the rope


tell me of you darkest dreams
hidden in your mind
sparks light those eyes
a magic here to find


these wispy realizations
are fogging up my brain
I shake to free them
to leave them in the rain


violins scream murder
down this bloody boulevard
you'll try to believe your fate
who knew it was this hard


in the wake of it all
you learn the truth
go back and sing a tale of faith
these places of your youth

Life and Times

The face you see
The soul inside
Will you get to know
Or will you hide

Smoke on water
The fire in the ice
I need the knowledge
What's your vice

Smile in the eyes
Tears on the sidewalk
Who is the artist
Paints time on the clock

Can't see though this glass
Because it's shattered
Hands to the sky
You're all that mattered

Sinister heart attack
Or beautiful heart beating
Fight all you want
But what are you defeating

Run towards heaven
Sprint towards fate
If we have forever
How long will you wait

Knowledge is power
To love is to know
When planted in soil
There's less room to grow

Seeing is believing
Life's an illusion
We'll learn to find beauty
amidst the confusion

Walking in circles
And talking in rhymes
If we start counting backwards
We'll see better times

Chances are few
Judgments are consuming
You'd like me more
If you weren't so assuming

I'd rather not cry
As you laugh at my pain
It may be pouring
But this sure ain't rain

Dozens of lovers
None of them feelers
Looking for enlightenment
Among the drug dealers

Don't blink or miss it
My love's on the table
Tell me the truth
Not looking for fable

Writing down the moment
Makes me think clearly
Just want you to know
I love you dearly